I know I must come across as confusing as times
But I’m not so sure it has anything to do with the mind of mine
But more so resources within self-care
You asked me in the letter you wrote before you left
“What are your favorite self-care remedies?”
I couldn’t answer that.
Rather in you being gone
I’ve been in this limbo
Of seeing you know what you want
And pursuing it
And me pondering what it is that I want
Besides only you
Because if I am only wanting only you
I could never be enough for all that is you
So here is what I want:
I want a small home sooner rather than later,
But only to move in with you.
I want to pour into young men’s lives
and show them their worth because I know mine.
I want to travel and see the world,
but in a sustainable way that allows me to see more and stay longer every time.
I’ll be okay with saying that I am a poet and my next project will be something special.
I will graduate with a degree in creative writing,
But I may not get my masters, at least not now, because I think I’d rather be a yoga instructor, work with my hands, and own property and rent it out to before mentioned young people.
I want the things I spend my time doing to grow my mind, body, spirit in the direction of good health.
I want to be open with my dreams, creation, and personality and let them grow and flourish
and I want to be not only okay with, but encourage you in your pursuit of doing the same thing.
I want to be fully alive and continue to fully know you.